BADIM 10: Ten Confessions!

Hello Sweet Peas!

Welcome to day 10 of Blog a Day in May!

Today I thought I would do something a little different (mainly because I’m running out of ideas!). So I’ve asked one of my closest friends to ask me ten questions (which he doesn’t know the answer too) and I have to confess the truth! Not going to lie, as I’m writing this intro I haven’t actually read the questions and I’m terrified. But let’s get started!

1. Have you ever betrayed someone?

Wow, we’re going in deep for this first question! Yes, sadly I have. I was 8 my sister was 4. We were playing in the living room, pretending to do gymnastics when I rolly pollied a little too far and smashed straight into the wooden TV cabinet. The force of my leg hitting the open door knocked it off its hinges. Hearing the crash my dad came running in and as you can imagine he was pretty angry about the old vintage cabinet door being broken. He demanded to know who had done it. Naturally, I threw my little sister under the metaphorical bus. To this day my parents have no idea it was me! Sorry, Sis!

2. Have you ever flirted with a stranger?

Weirdly enough I’m pretty good at flirting when it comes to strangers. It’s people I know that are the problem. I recently went on a night out with my mates and I happened to see a guy I used to go to school with. Maybe it was because I was in a nice dress and felt pretty…maybe it was the tequila, whatever the reason I decided to go up and talk to him. It was all going swimmingly until I accidentally confessed I’d recently stalked him on Facebook! When I sat back down, my mates described it as a Train Wreck.


3. What’s the weirdest thing you’ve ever done while drunk?

Where. Do. I. Start. Now the bright side of being a lightweight is that it doesn’t take a lot for me to be drunk. The downside is it doesn’t take a lot for me to be drunk! I think the weirdest time (probably the start of the downhill slope through university). I was on a residential trip with the classmates and about halfway through the day, the staff started handing out Pimms. I’d never tried Pimms and found I quite enjoyed it. Didn’t realise quite how much alcohol there is in Pimms. Somewhere along the afternoon, I ended up on the lawn with no shoes on, wearing someone else’s hoodie that was way too big, playing croquet with one of the best poets in the UK. To top it all off I won!

4. Have you ever slipped in public?

He’s cheated a little on this one because he knows bloody well I’ve slipped in public. It was over Christmas, I travelled up to the city to see my mate. We were walked back to my hotel that evening and I was wearing…not the most practical shoes. They were dangerous on a slope because they didn’t have any grip what so ever. We were walking along, I had a large mug of green tea from Starbucks in my hand. Suddenly, without any warning, my shoe slips out from under me and I hit the deck. My ankle twisted under me, my knee hit the flagstone (tearing not only my knee but my favourite jeans, which ironically enough I’m wearing right now!) and to add insult to injury I threw my hot tea into my face. I sat there for a moment, gathering together my thoughts (and my pride) to work out what had happened. Meanwhile, a man who had been walking behind me stopped, he didn’t help or say anything he just stood there. When I got up or rather was pulled up by my mate, the man just kept walking. Very weird.


5. Have you ever plagiarised?

I’m ashamed to say yes. My year 10 essay on the Mayor of Casterbridge was pretty much copy and pasted from Wikipedia and Spark Notes. I regret nothing, Thomas Hardy is god awful and to make a 14-year-old read his novel is child cruelty.

6. What’s the biggest lie you’ve ever told without getting caught?

I’m a little ashamed of this one. My housemate an I were at the Vevo Halloween Party a few years ago. I’d been drinking a lot of coke and Malibu and was desperate for the loo. I mean desperate! The lines were manic but finally, I was nearing the front. Then a group of very drunk women pushed in front of me. They were in no fit state to be reasoned with and my bladder was in no fit state to wait! So I chatted with them quickly while the loo was still occupied and I may have slipped into the conversation that I was desperate for the loo and that I was pregnant… Well, I got more of a reaction than I bargained for. The women were so overjoyed for me that they pushed me to the front of the queue. I would like to take a moment to remind you I was desperate, I was on the verge of wetting myself, so I wasn’t about to say no! I didn’t dare draw attention to the fact I still had a glass of rum in my hand!


7. When did you have the talk?

I was around 9 when my mum gave me the talk. To this day, there has never been a more awkward conversation. Not even when I came out to my mother! We were on holiday in the caravan and she sat me down with a textbook she’d bought online. I slowly combed through that textbook the whole of that caravan holiday, slowly becoming more mortified. The irony is ten years later I would lose my virginity in that very same caravan!

8. Which TV family are the most like your own?

The Durrells are literally my family! I like to think of myself as Larry, the misunderstood writer. My brother is Leslie, sensitive and obsessed with guns (although his are on the Xbox), and my sister is Margo…thick as two short planks but full of enthusiasm. My mum is literally Mrs Durrell incarnated, loving, caring, meddling, overbearing and completed devoted to her children. My dad is like Rodger, the dog. Smelly, hairy and completely dependant on the rest of us! (God I hope they don’t read this!)


9. Do you count your steps when you walk?

Yes, is that weird? I don’t do it all the time, but if I’m anxious or feel a panic attack coming on I count my steps. It gives my mind something else to focus on rather than my anxiety.

10. What is your greatest fear?

Honestly? My greatest fear is reaching the end of my life not having lived! I want to do and achieve so much that it scares me sometimes. I feel like I’m running out of time, even though I’m only in my early 20’s. I don’t fear death, its a part of life. I fear disappearing from this world without having left my mark on it.


There are my ten confessions! Thank you to my question maker for giving me an existential crisis! What are some of your confessions? Let me know in the comments?

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